Apr 8, 2010

Girls and Boys -Prelude

Brunswick Playground 

In a playground in the evening, kids and teenagers mingle and have fun under the blue sky. The stretch of green allows for more space for games and primes the mind to relax and the thoughts to wonder. At the central of the public space, a set of swings and see-saws and merry-go-around is enacted. Dancing trees and the breeze add to the beauty mother nature that is enjoyed by all.

Girls and boys are playing in the playground. Teenage boys are observed to kick, swing their arms and race around a ball. Their manoeuvre directly contrasts the pair of girls strolling across the ground in good mood and grace, chatting away in topics ranging from the schoolwork that is assigned to be done over the weekend to their favourite American Idols. They talk with no notice of the game of soccer, with no notice of the soccer ball high in the air coming their way as they walk. In any second the ball would hit one of them or both as they are talking and whispering.

A little girl accompanied by her grandma and grandpa walks across the sidewalk to the swing with a Barbie in hand. A little boy sits besides the swing with two power ranger toys, each hanging out in the air poised for battle; and as he closes his arms, the rangers appear to be fighting for the better or for the worst. But one thing for sure, the little boy enjoys it with frequent chanting of pomp, pomp, pomp, as the toys clash. And then, the little girl trips herself on the way to the swing, and injures her right knee as grandma rushes to her rescue. Putting her aging hand on the shoulder as the little girl cries, another comforts the wound, the grandma looks closely into the eyes of her grandchild and speaks volume about comfort and calm. Grandpa approaches with anguish and slight anger to the unfortunate fall, and clear from his voice as he comforts the grandchild that he wants her to be courageous and stand up again in her own feet. The little boy by the swing looks upon at the girl with no clues: within a hand stretched in front of the boy is the Barbie dropped to the ground as the little girl falls.

Around the walkways circling the parks are strollers and joggers.  Most of which take the time out back from a days’ work to celebrate how peaceful the weather is in the summer, and how in the evening a joyous atmosphere amid the greening trees along on the yellow-stoned pathway allows for smooth interactions with nature and for positive thinking. A middle-aged man in the formal wear back from work is walking his dog, a chi Wawa. Sniffing around for food and ants, it enjoys being in the company of its master. But it is talkative and hyperactive. Although he enjoys being with a small dog not having to worry about its strength, he is having a hard time trying to make connection with the nature than trying to follow the pace of the chi Wawa. Another woman in her forties is walking a dog coming into the walkway. The chi Wawa looks as being strong. But she seems to be in control. As she walks, the chi Wawa is being slow and steady: the rope between them is loosely hanged as they are in pace with each other. The woman shows no worries that it is going to bark with no apparent reason, or that it will be standstill in defiance. And in a distance, both the man and the woman are coming into each others from the opposite directions. And the dogs are approaching the crossing point as well.

Apr 29, 2009

Concerned We are

The journey of the teens’ – ours - is enthralling and complicated. Problems at school, social clashes, relationship trouble – we have many reasons to view life as being full of obstacles.

However, here are some ways to start feeling better:

1. TALK IT OVER: Open up to people you trust.

2. TAKE CHARGE: Do something that makes you feel in control.

3. GET EXPERT ADVICE: Seek out to your guidance counsellor or, to stay anonymous, call a helpline or crisis line.

4. DO SOMETHING YOU’RE GOOD AT: Whatever reminds you that you’re capable.

5. TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME: Don’t worry about the long-term consequences.

6. LAUGH: Watch a funny show or joke with friends: Laughter is a great stress reliever.

Last but not least, kindness and caring should always be in the minds and practised, for they are a best catalyst towards a higher level of humanity and a greater perpetuation of love.

Apr 27, 2009

Discovery

1) I have decided to put an end to my posts about love that I have myself so indulged in for the past few months. For now (now as apparent illusions and imaginations).

2) But that does not mean love is inconsistent, for love is true to the test of time; and that the eventual love is to see the happiness in her/him and be delighted in return.

3) I do admit having been flawed. I could only sincerely ask for understanding and forgiveness - as to err is human, to forgive divine. :p

4) For whom love may to what an extent concern, I do not know. However, I hope love will always be a pleasant and valuable experience in the process of learning and of life.

 

May she/he who has never loved before, love tomorrow; and may she/he who has loved, love tomorrow again. :)>

Apr 22, 2009

Mystical You

Yesterday (shouldn’t it be today; the mind and the heart are yet to shift its course…) did not meet with you. The day went by absent-mindedly, absent-heartily; the day was to some degree difficult. Lonely. Quite lost. But determined.

There was a catch though. You were spotted accidently. Ah, but why! Why! Almost went over, almost not. But in the end never.

The moment would always be in the memory. Mystical you, you walked with such countenance as to attract every attention: every other individual was oblivious. Watched you go. Followed you not. But turned away.

Should describe the feelings and minds thoroughly? Do want to recall, but shouldn’t. Be firm and positive. Such challenging. Such first experience.

(It is late, am reminded. One o’clock in the morning. Another day will be unknown. But very much possibly the day will be different.)

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I am different, it’s up to me to decide its course. Everything will be fine.

Apr 13, 2009

Instinctive Sacrifice

I ran following the crowd without looking back. I knew that I missed something behind. The most wetting canopy of air to me was but a meaningless congregation of vapours. My heart was elsewhere.

My legs were sleepwalking: my consciousness detached from my heart; I tried to bring myself to being, as we swarmed through the road, heading to a restaurant.

I failed. For about one round of the clock we were discussing, I was feeling isolated. Not isolated so much as to be left alone, but isolated thinking that I shouldn’t be around here. I should; my instinct, however, said otherwise. I was no longer myself.

The world around me was silenced as, one hand gripping a small plastic roof, another a cup of favours, I breezed through the constant sizzling sound of the atmosphere. I knew I had to be fast, I knew time was rushing against me, as the dome of favours in the cup reacted to the year-long summer of the country. And my holding hand transmitted my determination.

Alone, my heart enlightened, without realising, my reasons were relinquishing my actions totally to my instinct. The road back was a long one. Although it was with pain, it was with hope. And still holding on, the dome of favours melted gradually. But I made very sure that it was always within my control, my sight and my joy.

Should I say my heart melted with it? Step by step, I was only looking to bring it to the rightful owner, according to my instinct. Nothing stopped me. Even the loneliness that was consequential, would never get into the melting dome. But my heart did.

Reaching the right step of the place, I realised everything pass by so very swiftly, that I had actually reached my destination. My heart panting, I wondered around, in doubt, but in another dimension I found myself pressing the button. And the dimension happened to be the moment!

Out of foolishness? Out of reality?

I was again finding myself in a situation I knew not how to react. My instinct did it. My heart directed. I followed.

The melting dome was my melting heart. Again, I know not how was very wrong with myself, I just know it was instinct. But, I hope I am not wrong about you.

Mar 14, 2009

Jubilant (of) lovelorn imagery emotion

My minds are a labyrinth of confusing web. Many a times, in fact most of the time, I find it hard to concentrate on stuff that matters.

Really?

I am such a nerd. Till I touch the sky. Make a wish. Take a chance. Take a risk. Make a change.

Wanting to feel the warmth, I get abroad, spreading the wings to learn how to fly. And breaking away. Into the sun, I won't forget you I love.

Gotta keep moving. I swing my wings and I learn how to fly. And break away.

Well, at one day, could it be? When I was dreaming about you, baby, you were dreaming of me.

Call me crazy, call me blind. Till still be suffering, stupid after all of these times.

Till I lose, my life is so unbalanced. And then he loves you like I do. I do. You know I really really do. Wow hay! So much I need to say. Will I sense a day. The day you went away. So sat back through, for me there is only you. Been in crying sense a day. The day you went away.

Wow ho, yea hay hay...

I remember, day in a time, August 4 Saturday in the morning. In the door way, with your arrival. No longer shouting at each other, there were tears on the faces. And you were letting off of something special, something that you'll never have again. And I know, I guess I really really know.

But hay, so much I need to say. You always sense a day, the day you went away. So, sat back through, for me there is only you. In crying sense a day. The day you went away... The day you ran away... The day you went away...

Hohoho... hay hay hay...

Hohoho...

Need I lose, my life is just so unbalanced. And then he loves you like I do. I do. You know I really really do.

Wow hay! So much I need to say. You only sense a day. The day you went away. So sat back through. For me, there is only you. Been crying sense a day. The day you went away. Why do we never know what we got till it is gone? How could I carry on? The day you ran away.

Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say. Been crying sense a day.   

The day you ran away... The day you ran away... The day you ran away.

Woh ho, Hay ye!